Nights of anguish, days of pain

by master of shadow   Jun 1, 2006


All those nights of anguish
Going back into the mists of time
All those days of pretending
That life at home was fine.
Years of suffering in silence
Fearing every night
Hiding in the shadows
As he came into sight.
Hearing his car on the drive
Trying not to make a sound
Hardly moving or breathing
Desperate to not be found.
But even if I stayed hidden
He'd always get to me
Would go after a sister
Could hear her scream and plea.
Her screams would fill the house
Then he'd leave and she would cry
We could never stop him,
And often wish we could die.
Some nights he would find me
Create bruises black and blue
Yell about his problems
And all I put him through,
I used to feel so guilty
As he left me in my room
Feel that I need punishing
So the cutting I would assume.
The bruises and the scars
Would be lied about to all
They would never understand
How every night I would fall.
And so on it went
Day and night of pain
Fear and secrets
In a never ending chain.
Even now he has left us
Gone far away
The pain still remains
The fear is here to stay.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Kylie

    This poem is amazing. I can feel the emotions through your words. It's a very deep and beautiful poem. Fantastic work.

    x.xBrokenx.x

  • 18 years ago

    by Natashia

    That was really good...I almost felt the fear with you...This poem is so good and although its sad its very beautiful through the words you used....

  • 18 years ago

    by lana

    Wow
    i am so sorry for all the pain you have had in your childhood
    you are an amazing poet and i think you need to get some of them published
    you'll get far

    good luck and take care lana

  • 18 years ago

    by Arcane Blondie

    Wow that was an amazing poem-- you expressed the emotions really well and im sorry for all your pain--great poem 5/5

  • 18 years ago

    by cathylee

    WOW that was a very good poem.
    If that really happened to you I'm sorry that your childhood was so dark. I ahve a son, He's just 11 months and I vow to him, to his family and now to you that I will do all I can in my power to make sure his childhood is what your's should have been. Happy, safe, and nurturing. I'm sorry but you are very talented and you should publish your stuff. You could help people that are going through what you did. Thanks for looking at my poem look at some of my other stuff and let me know what you think. And you can be honest with me cause I like honesty.

    Take care,
    Cathy

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