Neglecting Myself

I don't know where to go
I am scared of what I'll find there
I am drowning in my own misery
Yet I don't know what is causing it
I think one day I'll be okay
But then tomorrow comes
I thought I was okay yesterday
But that is now today

I watch as the people around me fall
Harder to the solid ground
Listening to the falling rain
It's the only peaceful sound

I am now alone, in a place I'd never call home
Trying to get my vision straight
Trying to relieve all of my hate
Hate is too strong of a word to use
I am too strong to be abused
The only problem that seems to be
The only one abusing myself, seems to be just me.