A sufferer of bullying and rape

personally i find it kind of confusing, but well hope you get the message!!

it hurts so much when the blood starts to pour
i sit against my bedroom door
a time of freedom and release
when my soul is let off its leash
it floats just above my head
living the life i crave instead
and then a knock, an interruption
my body feeling an unwelcome corruption
i close my eyes and pray for you to go away
fantasize about you going a stray
but you bang the door open
and my whole body goes frozen
you grab my arm and push me on the bed
and as i fall i hit my head.
you stand there holding me
powerlessly i attempt to get free
i scream you cover my mouth
my tormented voice is drowned out
you climb on top of my body
and wipe my eyes from my sobbing
your sickening voice attempts reassurance
and for a second you have innocence
but then you pull of my jeans
it all seems like an unwanted dream
i feel you go inside me
your eyes have no sensitivity
the gem I'd been guarding has been stolen
i can feel my soul being broken
satisfied you get off
you cover my mouth with a dirty cloth
then you give me a tender kiss on my covered lips
and laugh as you see the blood start to drip
you walk away as my life starts to die
and i hear myself ask why?
i get up and grab for my abandoned blade
the scars already starting to fade
i put it against my wrist
and press hard to form a slit
i dig so hard into the vein
and say goodbye to a life full of pain
the police examined my body as i lay on the floor
mum and dad wondering if they could of done more
well that is the end of my life
I'm free of troubles, woes and strife
my life didn't turn out as it could of been
and i become another statistical teen

>>SoAlOnEgUrL