Numb Fear

by Carlee Ann   Jun 2, 2006


I fight and I struggle
I'm there and I'm not
I pretended like I had
But I haven't forgot

I'm not angry anymore
If anything, I'm numb
I didn't want a disappointment
But I've found another one

I don't want to feel anymore
Maybe I'm just afraid inside
Because every word you said,
Every promise was a lie

You didn't care about me
And what if no one does?
What if I marry my father,
Will that finally be enough?

Because I'm afraid I will
I'm scared to be abused
Mentally, physically,
I'm terrified to be used

I know God is beside me
I know the truth is there
But it kills me inside to know
You never really cared

I don't show emotion
I can't cry another tear
I can't breathe or think
I'm being held down by fear.

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  • 18 years ago

    by This Is Me

    What does marrying your father have to do with anything. But I liked your poem outwise. It was good, keep up the good work.

  • 18 years ago

    by ♥SeRioUsLy DyinG♥

    GooD PoeM....i LoVe iT.....KeeP uP Da WorK....-patti-

  • 18 years ago

    by Darien

    I like the paradox you used in the first stanza, if definitely caught my attention. It gave it a really good start, and then you ended it so well too. Wow, that is just amazing. I really liked this poem. Strong, emotional, and a very interesting story. I could relate to it.

    "I know God is beside me
    I know the truth is there
    But it kills me inside to know
    You never really cared"

    That stanza clicked with me. Awesome job!

  • 18 years ago

    by Laura

    WOW!!
    Eventhough this was truly a sad poem it rocked my world!! I loved the flow and you have the ability to make the reader feel compassion for the writer.
    5/5 Excellent!

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