Your gone forever xxxx

I have just heard the bad news its killing me inside i wish u didn't do it but i new at some stage u would die when i found out i broke down and cried now as I'm writing this the pain is cutting me like a hundred stabbing knives i was close to u in my own way we have spent good and bad times together but i want u to no i have always looked up to u and now my whole world is crashing i cant feel a thing i really need u home with me i cant even explain how much heartache i feel its like one of your family members just suddenly disappeared but apart of me went with u and i Will always think of u at first i didn't want to except it didn't wanna believe it was like a knife slicing my chest and i couldn't breath i cried so hard i couldn't even get off the floor but i had to let it out cause it was tearing at my heart