Need to stop loving you

I worked so hard on us working out
I struggled through your cheating
our fights && our shouts
I gave you all I had to give
but I had to stop because
I needed a little for to live

I begged for God to help us stay as one
on my knees begging pretty pretty please
staying strong so we wouldnt come undone
but I had to get up and rise to my feet
because I was dying on the floor
that pain I couldnt defeat

I never gave up on what we could have been
always saying things are okay and I didnt mind
while holding back that rage I hid within
but my strength started to unwind
because I was falling apart as nothing at all
and I didnt want to learn to crawl

so here I am today
12 months later
still wishing the same things as I pray
I miss you and I want you back
but I need to stop loving you
because things will never change
we`ll fall back into the wrong tracks...