6 Months Ago Again

When we're together I'm numb. Memories of the past flood my mind. I'm incapable of thinking clearly. We were behind the door, agains the wall. Recreating my past. I say no, I can't. And I break your heart.

Don't blame me for your problems, because I didn't cause them, this I know. Instead I caused you pain, not even happiness.

An act of enjoyment caused nothing but anger. Hatred rises from the cheer. He did this to me. Why do you have to be the same?

We're together again, in another time of need. Because you're unable to understand why. I try to explain, you say you get it but you don't. It's too late, you never will. It's too late to experience fear, to experience love, experience pleasure, experience us. It's too late now that I'm gone.

What is love? I don't know, but we had it. Now it's lost because of my fears. I'm afraid I lost you for good. It's all his fault. You kiss me and my fears are gone. But then you disapear again.

Our end came at the middle of your relationship. It was followed by a flood of memories of my first time. And when this time comes around again, 6 months later, we'll face it again.