To My Mother

I wish that I could make you proud
I wish that I could make you love me for who I am
I wish I could be the perfect daughter
I wish that I could be who I am

I'm sorry
For that I'm not the daughter you want
For that I'm not the girl you once knew
For that I'm not good enough for you

Mother,
I wish just once you could be proud of me
I wish that you could accept that I'm not you
That I have much better things in mind for what I want to be

Mother,
I love you so dearly
But why can't you love me?
Why can't you be happy for who I am?

Mom,
I love you with all my might
I love you no matter what
I love you with all I can give.

I wish
You could realize that I have a gift
You could realize that this is what I enjoy doing
And for this is what my future beholds me

Day after day
Night after night
Month after month
Year after year
I wish you could be proud of me

Be proud
Of who I am
Of who I will turn out to be
Of your daughter

I only have one thing to be grateful for
And that is so I don't turn out to be like you
I love you with all my heart
But I have so much more then that.

Thank you
For abusing me
For that I can live in reality

You caused me so much pain
And with that pain
I've became stronger
And I can now handle so much

But mother
Please love me for me
Please understand I want so much more
Please be happy for who I want to be

I'm sorry
That I can't be the daughter you want
That I can't make you happy
That I can't please you

But my dear mother,
I want so much more out of life
I want so much more out of myself
I just want so much more than what you want me to be.