Baby Love Pt. I

I don't know what I'm going to do
In around 9 months I should be due
Thinking right now about abortion
Its up to me hes not enforcing`
He wants a baby but I don't know right now
Yes I'm pregnant and many know how
(Unprotected sex: Trying for a baby
We want it for sure not just maybe)
People have found out about our secret
But I don't know if many even believe it
In a way I want to be with Mario and keep the baby
But my parents wouldn't even say maybe
They would be so upset and I would leave
I would break their hearts beyond belief
I want a baby cause` my life's planned
I have to go to their college, their job to their demand
(Not just that but I love kids and I want one
I want my choice my choice for once and be done)
They want me to excel and be successful
I mean if they supported me it would be more helpful
You have no idea how hard it's going to be to tell
My friend said I could make it seem like I fell
But I don't want a miscarriage, I want it
I know it seems wrong not just a bit
But really wrong and not right but still
How would you feel if your life was chosen against will?
Last night up till 5AM thinking about this
Me and Mario together is bliss
But you know we have our arguments
Stopped smoking, Camels, Parliaments
For the baby of course cause I don't want defects
I cant wait to see the effect
On my parents when I tell them about the baby
Inside I'm grown up, they see me as a young lady
They don't know what I have been through
Maybe they'd feel different if they knew
But they will never know how I feel unless they're me
But they will never be me and that they'll have to see
I cant wait for the baby, but then I'm thinking abortion
Diapers, bottles, formula and baby lotion
I want a baby yes I do
And I know I could take this if I wanted to
Its just what if Mario and I don't work out?
But every time we argue we work it out
So it may work, but it may not time will tell
He caught me as I fell