You all ask why I'm so quiet in class
why i don't join in and have a laugh
if i did would you even listen?
and make sense of my pearls of wisdom
or would you make a joke of me
and challenge my integrity
why should i even try?
when all you do is make me cry
it's a surprise you even know my name
when all you do is point out my shames
no-one ever sees behind my disguise
my friends, my family no-one tries
and when you make those comments, a part of me you to take
and day by day i become more and more fake
i want to find myself again
for my sanity i need to fend
sure theres the odd friend or two
but they really are far and few
but there is this ray of light
and not to love him, my heart does fight
Cos in the end it will end up broken
and my mind keeps telling me i shouldn't
but i need good things in my life as well
on peoples opinions i must not dwell
so i went against myself and told you i loved you
and to my surprise you said you loved me too
you said you thought i was cute
that when my mind went a mute
i didn't know what to say
my mind, my body, my soul a stray
you told me you loved my extra curves
and then my life hit a curb
i had never felt loved in my life
and now i fantasize about being your wife
then i became dependent and obsessed
my family started noticing the extra stress
i became emotional and closed
saving my words for you, my mouth opposed
i read into your every word
and you became my entire world
and then the news you had died
you were stressed and committed suicide
my little hope had left me alone
i miss our late night sessions on the phone
i need to be with you, i pick up the knife
and say farewell to my tortured life
i look at the blade and then myself
and in my veins i let it delve
i close my eyes and cry your name
Cos deep down we'll be together again
i open my eyes and your not there
but there angels with halos and golden hair
i turn around and there you are
you walk to wards me with open arms
me and you finally together
me and my honey in heaven forever
