Unfaithful

Story of my life searching the the right, but it keeps avoiding me.. sorrows in my souls cuz it seems that wrong really loves my company~

hes more then a guy and this is more then love the reason that the sky is blue... but clouds are rolling in b/c hes gone again.. and to me he just cant be true...~

he knows that i know that hes just unfaithful and it kills me inside to know that he happy w/ some other girl... can he see I'm dying...?

i don't want to do this anymore, i don't want him to be the reason why, every time he walks out the door i know I'm dying more and more inside.. i don't want him to hurt me anymore.. i don't want him to be the reason why.... i don't want to make this suicide....

i feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair, preparing for another day. knowing i feel weak, what am i suppose to do? whys it have to be this way...? the blades against my skin and i am almost there.. now all i have to do is cut... but somethings stopping me and i think its him what I'm suppose to do...hes still in my head and i know hes gone and my dreams never coming... but if he knows that i know that hes just unfaithful, it still kills me inside... to know that hes happy w/ some other girl and that girl isn't me... i hope he can see I'm dying~

i don't want to do this anymore and i don't want him to be the reason why.. every time he walks out the door i know I'm dying more and more inside... i don't want him to hurt me anymore and i don't want him to take away my life... i don't want this to be suicide...

but w/ my love and his trust i might as well take a gun and put it so my head and get it over w/ cuz i don't want to do this anymore...

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kayla