Another Stab.

Took time out to heal,
A new being was in motion.
Hate still carved up top,
But it was starting to fade.
Faint wording, mixed thoughts,
I still don't understand.

He has had so much influence,
He aided you to the meds.
Corrected the dose,
You believed it was safe.
Sip after sip, no change
Not until the morning came.

Hid all this once again,
How can I believe this?
Another stab, another attack,
I can't seem to be the same.
Help is there; take it,
Let them fix whatever is hurting.

I don't understand why,
What's so good about this?
The pain from the indentation,
As the blood starts to flood.
The feeling of numbness,
Like you're not here.

I guess I won't have answers.