All i can say is im sorry

It seems im always hurting you
going behind your back
telling you im over him
knowing that its just an act
its hard to accept
that i love him just as much as i love you
but i know i have no say in it
and i don't know what to do
you fell like im playing you
to him im just one girl
you have no idea what you mean to me
it seems more than just my world
you know i would die for you
just so you know how much i care
but i just don't relise how lucky i am to know that you are there
you always tell me he'll just use me
even if i know its true
you always seem to be there for me
no matter what i do
i wana tell you something
you might hate me forever
but i think you need to know
cause i seem to make it worse before it gets better
i seen him last week
notin happened but a goodbye kiss
i know it sounds like my love is fake
but i wana tell u this
i was thinking about how much i love you
u wont think its true
but i finally built up the courage to tell him i love u
i dont wana loose you
i know i fu**ed up bad
i hope u can forgive me and im sorry if i made u sad
i didn't mean to do it
it wasn't at all my choice
i keeped this from you long enough
i felt guilty just to here your voice
but as long as you know i love u
and what i did was a mistake i knew i shouldn't of done it
but letting you know this is a risk i have to make