One day at a time,
ill be free of this pain.
one day at a time,
ill move a little closer
to seeing you once more.
one day at a time,
ill get stronger
so that i wont be upset
everytime i walk out my door
and in some way somehow
I'm reminded of you once more.
no matter where i go or what i do,
somehow i get this stabbing feeling in my heart
that i don't think will ever go away.
You PROMISED you would never leave me,
i believed you with everything i had,
but now I'm sitting here crying because of what you've done.
I know it wasn't your fault,
and i know you never wanted to go,
Yet deep in my heart as much as i hate to admit it,
i know this could have been avoided.
So one day at a time,
ill slowly move on from this pain,
well at least thats what I'm hoping for,
because its not looking to good right now.
I try everything i can for just that one moment in the day
that i wont be reminded of you,
but then i look outside,
and look at all the kids with their dads,
or i see or hear one of my friends talk about their dads,
and i think to myself,
don't ever let them take it for granted
because thats what i did,
and now I'm left with only
a broken promise and a letter
of his new life that I'm not apart of.
And i wish to have him back even tough we used to fight
or whatever else it seems hat i disliked at the time
but now would give almost anything to have it one more time.
It's pretty funny i think,
to think of my life the way it used to be,
when i thought things were no where near perfect,
where everything always seemed to go wrong
well boy was i wrong,
it was the complete opposite
but i can only realize that know
because i don't have it anymore.
and thats why they say,
you don't know what you got till its gone.
Well God i think you made your point,
you opened my eyes to so many new things,
and as hard as it is right now,
i know with your strength and guidance i can overcome this
and be the girl i used to be,
gosh i miss it so much.
So I'm just waiting for that day,
where i can finally see my dad again,
to see his smile and feel his hug.
it seems so far away,
but it is what gets me though each day.
I seriously don't know what to do,
or where to turn,
or how to overcome this.
So ill put everything i have to God
and let him take care of the rest,
cause obviously it was meant to be.
So one day in the future
ill be free from this
and be able to once again...
be myself.
**I know this may not make any sense to some of you, and i know it doesn't rhyme or flow well together but it wasn't meant to be that way. I just had to get it out and now hopefully i can start to solely move on cause this is taking over me and i cant let it go no further then it is. So please let me know what you think, and give me some feedback and if you are confused about this or just don't know what I'm talking about then write me a message and ill explain it to you the best way i know how. Thanks.
