The Ride (this is about the first and only time I have done crystal meth)
Too fast, too fast just stop my heart beating its going too fast roller coasters careening
Churning burning spinning around my head goes reeling with one little sound
Puking the sensation of being alive no I dont want anymore just hope I survive
Eyes wide open a week has passed since yesterday an hour flashes by in a minute
Stop the ride were going too fast I might crash or fall off the tracks racecars in my veins blood pulsing through my body I feel that Im alive but time and purpose have gone foggy jump little froggy to the bottom of the sea dont ride the roller coaster you might end up like me looking through bubbles at the surface cant break free no grape juice or bubblegum for twisted frogs like me involuntary movement I cant slow myself down pure adrenaline is rushing over my mind the hole gets deep so fast its so hard to climb teeth grinding out of control shoot santa claus and steal all his snow taste the cool metallic gun in my mouth choking on bullets exhale smoke oh no weve sped up lost track of life tender caressing; loving blade of the knife slice into the racetrack hit the brakes hold on tight dont move dont touch leave me on my island of couch tangled in threads of life below the surface; beneath the couch I hear the life below I cant float anymore sink beneath the cushions to the floor solid assurance in the pain of sinking yet still the childs poison candy is clinging my heart beating so fast working too hard a slave to smoky glass the pain nausea sinking to reality back to my own identity sickness headache sore to the bone body on overload too hot too cold too I dont know skin burning ice cold stomach empty bodily confusion the shells to our souls dont know why we abuse them exhaustion uncomfortable too amped to go to bed spinning speeding hold my throbbing head minutes hours go by while I float music skipping stuck on one note who am I? When did I lose all hope this is surely the bottom someone throw me a rope too deep backwards I slide so pay the ticket man and hold on for the ride
