I Ly awake at night
because ure always on my mind
either if theres pain into that thinking anger or love
who knows
when u asked her out
i thought u were over me so i told myself to get over u
but u c theres way more there then anything
i feel anger(how i trusted u and than u got high) i feel empty with out u for we had a lot
i want to scream at u until i have no voice
to tell u that i deserve u but in a whole different way
i feel Passion for every breath of yours that collided against my body
i feel the tears because the words we said to each other were to hard for me to understand
* feel love most of all*
i cant explain it but it feels good and it feels painful
knowing that i cant do it again
but if i love u y am i afraid
I'm afraid that we'll betray each other
in things we both cant say
I'm afraid of loosing u afraid that one day ill never get u back
so i thought maybe it was easier if u stayed with Kassi
so that i can move on
but i cant
i try
i lie 2 u to tell u I'm over u but it wont happen
no matter how hard i try
to come to the conclusion
its love i feel
no matter how many times i told u i loved u and said it wasn't true
this time its 4 real
but I'm scared
so i hide it. i love u but its a secret that i cant say.
the tears i cry- the pain i feel- the trust thats gained and lost is more than i feel.
baby i miss u but i just cant say
because i need to learn to get over u some way
maybe someday
but I'm not ready to move on
so ill look at u in the hallways when you're hugging her and ill say to myself i lost him- he lost me- i love him- he loves me- but theres no way we can be
this is my feelings i feel(that u need to c)
luv,
$@$HA
*i love this guy named josh. i ended it because i was afraid it wasnt made to be. and now i know i made a mistake but hes with someone else.