Finding Myself

My life is dark
It is all sadness and misery
I ask myself
Why do they all inflict this pain on me?
Do I deserve this hell?
Should I move on and forget everything in my past?
So much has happened
It has changed me so much
I feel like I have lost myself
Im lost in a world that I can't escape
I hide behind a smiling face
I make everyone think I live a perfect life
Hiding the problems from people hides the embarrasment
Makes the troubles go away
Everyone is around me
But I still feel alone
A dark and cold place is where I belong
That's what the voices tell me everyday
There's no escape
No way out
No one can find me
I'm lost
I'm the only one who can find the way out
Of this dark, cold, lonely place
I don't know how long it will take
I want to be free
I want to be happy
I must escape
I have to find the light
I HAVE TO FIND MYSELF!!!