God can't you see i love him

My back is hurting
My mind can't think
My hands won't type
My body is weak

I'm stuck missing you
This gaping hole won't shrink
I can't make this ripe
I feel like a freak

I miss your tender kiss
What happened to our bliss?
I can't go on anymore
Can't tell you what my heart is for

I want to give up on living
So tired of forgiving
Do you want me back too
I know theres a few things to do

It's only you that I miss
Don't know what to do about all this
You walked out of my life
Now I fear I can't live

I want to die so badly
Do you even miss me?
My hearts been ripped
Can't be sewn or fixed

I've lost everything I had
No job, no school, no home
My mind can't even roam
Every things gone bad

Why won't you come back to me
I'm turning blind and I can't see
I'm stuck in an constant daze
This life is a never ending maze

I know this poem doesn't rhyme
Loving you seems like a worst crime
God, I miss him give me love
I'm a hopeless romantic from above

IF you won't give me love
Then give me wings to heaven
To be with my brethren
I can't take this hell

If you gave me feelings
That why does my heart have such dwellings?
God I am begging you to help me
Why don't you see?

What have I done wrong?
IS this just bad karma
It's been so long
since I've seen him

I give up
I might as well die
It'd be a lie
to say I..could .. go on
like this.
I miss you Chris