Can't be me

I don't believe what I see.
This can't be, this just can't be me.
Take your dirty hands away, you fool
Don't think for one second this has anything to do with you.
I tried to be everything you wanted,
And yet, I'm still the same
I try, still, to capture the moment
That I became the one to blame.
Tortured little lights glow above my head
Repeating to me every single word you've said.
Get out of my memories,
Stay away tonight
I'm like a little kid afraid of the dark, oh the pain and oh the fright.
Distance between us only creates more wounds, I see tears spilling from damp eyes
I wonder, still, how any of this caught me by surprise.
A million deaths couldn't bring back what you've taken
Shadows cover this dead soul
I am still so shaken.
Empty words try to repair the damages, but
I want you to just take one good look, one final look
At what you did.