I know you'll never read this,
nor will you know how I feel,
but I can accept that,
and its not your fault, so no big deal.
I miss you so very much
and I really wish you were here,
but because of your cancer
you can no longer be near.
If fact,
I've lived the past 2 years without you,
and until recently everything went rather well,
but these last few months
have really turned into hell.
Mom is stressed beyond belief,
and us kids don't know what to do
making these decisions
was always up to you.
Steve and Michelle are fine,
the have a house now.
Jenn and Clint had a baby,
ever thing has kept going, though no one knows how.
Jackie hasn't married yet
but she is doing well.
Scott's been married,
what he'll do now, I can never tell.
Patrick graduated from college
and soon he'll find a job.
Matt moved out a while back
but he's still searching for a job.
Rachel is off to college soon
and her depression is past.
Stay is having troubles with her grades,
she just wants the fun to last.
I have changed a lot
become better, yet worse..
I seem to be falling into depression,
oh, I hope its not a curse.
And Dad,
One last thing...
I'm sorry you had to die
because you had all your kids to live for
but we'll be okay,
even though we keep missing you
more and more.
