Waiting apology

I sit by the telephone waiting for your call, but yet i still haven't got nothing at all. i can cry here all by myself. thinking about you and dreaming about somebody else. i love you, oh yeah that is true. but my memories are gone and they haven't been coming back through. i wish i could find the words to say, to replace those hateful things that attack me still till this day. I'm sorry for the pain i caused. but then again I'm not because i know that those lies were lies,and i know the truth behind Ur blank eyes. so dont try to lie and make up truth. because in the end it doesn't only hurt me but it also hurts you. so tell me why I'm here waiting again, waiting for that call even though Ur just an old friend. well ill tell you why, or maybe you can see. that i still love you and imnot giving up on you because i know your not giving up on me, and if thats not true I'm sorry because I'm sitting here with your waiting apology.