My Last Day

This will be the last time,
The last day,
I will feel like this,

My last day.

As I sit here staring,
Into the plaster white wall,
And I see the dents in it,
I remember.

I remember what happened,
Why and when,
Just another reminder,
Of my life I need to fend

Fend for myself,
With no guidance at all,
But I find myself watching,
My life slowly fall.

As I sit here staring,
Into the veins on my wrist,
And the scars that graffiti them,
I remember.

I remember the lies,
The hurt and abuse,
I remember all the times,
I tried to set myself loose.

Loose from my family
My self, my life
To get rid of the pain,
With the sharp slit of a knife.

As I sit here staring,
Into an empty house,
All alone by myself,
I remember.

I remember nothing,
No reasons that I know
For why Im always sitting here,
Cold and alone

Except for the fact,
My sisters the best,
In my parents eyes,
Me, they couldnt care less.

As I sit here staring,
I can feel the pain,
Deep within me,
I remember.

I remember everything,
Yet nothing at all,
For all the reasons above,
Are why tears constantly fall.

Its like Im being ripped apart,
Tared into bits,
Because of this,
My life I might not miss

As I sit here staring,
I think of ways,
To make tonight,
My final, last day.