The way i feel
i wish i didn't
feel like this
i wish i had my life back
he took it from
me in a matter of
5 minutes
theres so much
hate and shame
and guilt and
the thoughts
are there
and its eating me alive
i feel like
I've lost control
how do you deal with it
a part of me
wishes i could hit him
the other part of me
is ashamed to
do anything
to talk about it
so as i do nothing
i sit here and
the tears start
to roll down my soft cheek
nothing to hold on to
but my stomach
the thoughts
piss me off
so i cry even more
the tears just
seem to be coming back
I'm trying to
keep my secret hidden
but lately the more
i try the more i cry
the more
shame, guilt, anguish, anger,
i seem to feel.
WHY ME?
thats my question why
did he have to do it to me
we were friends
grew up together
what the hell
did i do to deserve it
is what i keep asking myself
but i keep moving on
and i cant figure
out how to deal
i now hate myself
because of him.
i hope he rots in hell.
