All i had

Thoughts of death
floating threw my head
wishing to die
when you did not return
picked up habits
that i can not stop
all i do is try
to forget you
these cigarette fill my mind
with funny thoughts
i still seam
to find that one
with you and me
that makes me laugh
take a drink
that burns my throat
all the way down
even when i cant stand
laying in the gutter
drank enough i cant remember
yet i see that car
think its yours
but it does not stop
take the sharpest objects
i can find
try to kill myself
watch this liquid of life
spill from my vains
till i faint
before I'm gone
i wish i didn't
have to slowly die
yet you left without
a word now I'm trying
to move on
its so hard i cant you were all i had