Why did I screw up?
Why couldn't I just say no?
And I don't have you here to experience it with me
I can't talk to you
Or see what you think I should do about my situation
Should I keep our child?
I need your opinion on waht to do
I cry these bitter tears alone
And I have no one who can help me
I can talk to councilors, family, or friends
But you are the only person who truly understands me
Yet they took you away
And I cannot quite understand why
But they didn't think of how I would feel without you
If maybe I could survive this ordeal by myself
However, I no longer feel anything but pain
I feel as if my warm emotions have drifted away
Leaving only a cold breeze and a strange emptiness
My heart is no longer whole
I don't know what you are doing
I don't know how you feel
You know about the baby
You said you would support me
Except, how am I going to get them to let you be here for me?
I need your support
They try to help me be strong
Yet I know it is all an act
They are hiding their genuine feelings from me
Disappointment and failure is all they see
They love me but detest my actions
Why won't they let me see you?
Or at least hear your voice?
I need something to fill in this void that shakes my soul with unbearable throbbing
And only you can fulfill it
I'm scared I won't be able to take care of our child
Especially without you
But they won't listen to my reasoning
They don't care about what I think or how I feel
And won't bother to step into my life and take a look around
I need you
Our child needs you
I refuse to sneak around to be with you
I will not play this game of keeping secrets from my guardians or parents
It causes too much chaos and too much distrust in the long run
Yet I need you more than oxygen
I no longer feel like myself
It is as if someone has stripped away my personality
And shoved a soul always in despair into where I used to be
Why must I undergo this burden alone?
