It shouldn't have happened
I don't understand why I couldn't back down
It all started because Marie couldn't get off of my bed
You came in yelling at me
And getting into my face
Trying to push me to the place that I truly hate
I was almost over the edge
Of my cliff of anger
If I had fallen,
Someone would have gotten hurt
No matter how hard I tried,
I couldn't calm down
Too many hateful words had been said
You left the room
And thought you heard fighting
So, you returned with more harsh words
Then the screaming began once again
Because of it, my frustration turned to rage
I tried so hard to sit down and shut up
Except, my mind and body didn't want to hear what I had to say
You kept shouting and spitting hurtful words
I'll be honest and admit that I did the same thing
For some reason, we kept going at it
You finally walked off
As a result, I closed the door
To my surprise, you had a problem with not being able to hear what I was saying
Something came slamming into the door
I recognized that something as you
The door frame came a part and the top hinge came undone
You blamed me for the injury to your house
Accused me of ruining your property
And whom did you call?
Why, the police of course
The cops came in and gave me their usual lecture
In addition, with my luck, the female cop from last time was one who had come
She kept asking if I was the girl who had kicked in the windows and beat up her mom
Some police just don't know how to keep their mouths shut or get their facts straight
However, you kept feeding them full of over-dramatic information
Trying to make me look unmanageable in the law's eyes
The pigs took pictures of the door
I saw bacon frying in a pan (in my mind's eye)
I must admit that I was feeling very violent
And if I were given half a chance, I would've beat the shit out of Marie
Chelsey helped me calm down
She put in my favorite song while we waited for my grandmother to appear
You couldn't upset me anymore, though you sure tried
I'm sorry it pissed you off so much
I had just decided that I was no longer going to argue with you
Grandma Marjean finally showed up
I was escorted to her house while my stepsisters were taken to their father's house
I called you the next evening
I apologized and I meant it, damn it
But did you listen to a sincere word I said?
No
I've tried mother, but I must give up when defeated
I have to go to court now and probably go to jail
I'm getting put back on probation, even might become the state's ward
Do you understand what that means?
You will no longer be able to see me
For Hell's sake, you won't even know where I am
Well, I hope you feel better now
Knowing that you will no longer have to care for me
You should be excited
I won't ever get to see my boyfriend, the one person who cares
I must get going now
And I know that you can finally understand my side of our terrible story
The first mistake for almost a year
I hope you hold this letter close to your heart
Because I will never get to be there
