When i think of how happy i am
there's always that shadow of fear lingering
i have many wounds on my heart and soul
because of family and friends
i just push the fear back because of fear itself
i am afraid of losing everything i know
i have lost friends, trust, and willingness
but i wont let it show, no one will see what pain is really inside of me
there are times when the wounds grow and grow
and eventually i will let them show
my heart can only take so much of this
Its reaching its limit of what it can hold
when i think everything is going perfect
that shadow of fear comes and takes it away
i wont let it take my happiness with you
i will fight with all i have to save you
i have to fight this darkness
but there are times i just want to to let it consume me
it gets harder and harder as i get happier
because i just know something will go wrong
nothing good lasts forever, but i can only wish
that i will not let the darkness take over
there are too many people who loves me
but how long can that last
