I'm thinking

I'm thinking screw you for all you've done,
I'm thinking I hate you for all you put me through,
I'm thinking of the pain you inflicted upon me,
I'm thinking of all the tears I wish I hadn't cried,
I'm thinking about all the times I wanted to die,
I'm thinking about the reasons why I still like you,
I'm thinking of all the answers I can't find,
I'm thinking of all the tears I kept inside,
I'm thinking of all the people who knew me outside,
I'm thinking of all the blessings I have,
I'm thinking of all the clear thoughts that aren't in my head,
I'm thinking of all the wrong things,
I'm thinking of all my mistakes,
I'm thinking I hate you,
I'm also thinking its too late,
I'm thinking I love you,
I'm thinking it might not be real,
I'm thinking it was too good to be true,
I'm thinking I wish I never found you.