I'm so confused and don't know what to do
I miss you, yet I miss him also
You are so far away he is near
I can't even talk to you, let alone see you
I miss being held and cared for
Talked to about everyday things
When I get a chance to talk to you,
Silence is all that meets my attempts at conversation
Does it matter that I'm lonely?
Am I supposed to sit here and do nothing?
While you can see whom ever you want to?
I know that he cares for me
Possibly more than you do at this present time
I have a feeling that you won't break it off
Because you don't want to have to listen to the hurt in my voice
Or see it in my eyes
I love you, but I need more in my life
You act as if our seperation means nothing
Don't you care that my mother won't allow me to be close to you?
Doesn't it bother you that I may be over you?
I'm so confused and don't know what to do
Should I wait for a chance to be with you again?
Or should I let go and take a chance with him?
You act hurt when I ask these questions
But a few moments later, you act like it was no big deal
If you aren't afraid of losing me,
Then how could you possibly love me enough to still want me?
I care for him, and miss him dearly
He cares for me and returns my feelings
But when it comes to you,
My wounds are still festering
I want to be with you
And have been for a year off and on
Yet I grow tired of our situation
I feel as if you want to be rid of me
And you act like you don't care
There is someone here who wants me
And would take good care of me
He wouldn't hurt my pride
Wouldn't play with my emotions
I have tried to make you and I work
But I am tired of being the only person trying in the relationship
Why can't I get my feelings into words?
My ideas and thoughts seem to be jumbled
I doubt you can understand what I mean by all of this
Let me try to put it in a simpler manner
I love you, but want him
You seem sick of me and I'm getting tired of giving and not receiving
I'm confused and don't know what to do
So, why don't you help me?
