I've got to get this shit out
And maybe I'll be able to sleep
Be able to eat and feel okay
This is not only emotional pain
But it is now physical pain
I ache so much
James, I don't know what to think
Or what to do or feel
I love you so much
But sometimes I doubt your love
I can't talk to you
Are you being faithful?
I'm so scared I'm going to lose you
I constantly feel sick
As if I'm always down with the flu
I have good moments at school,
Some high times
But it feels like I'm on drugs
Because after I come out of those highs,
I sink into the dark depths of depression
I need you, my savior
During the day, I see other guys
And wish I could be with any of them
Just so I could feel arms wrapped around me
And see eyes filled with compassion
Or hear laughter and feel happiness
But the problem is that I love you
Not them
Yet I'm scared you've forgotten me
No one wants us together
And I know we screwed up
But I hurt in every possible way
Because I can't have you
If only I could talk to you
Maybe I would feel some joy
My soul is cold and frosty
As the outside in this wintry landscape is
Babe, I need you so much
You are all that I want in life
When you are around,
Life is perfect
But without you,
I feel numb and distant
I just don't have fun anymore
Why can't I have you?
Why won't they understand that I NEED you?!
It hurts knowing that we are going out
Yet not ever together
I hope you don't feel this pain
It is too much to bear
I think of death
Without you, I have no reason to live
Why must you be so far out of reach?
