Life

I thought that life was meant to teach you lessons
But I now realize it is meant to cause you harm
Every day that I open my eyes and wake up,
I always wish to close them and never come back
I try to avoid the pain this world brings
But even if I hide for days,
Sorrow and tears hit my heart with a terrible force
I constantly ache
The only way this pain will leave
Is if I help myself and climb out of this hole
I know this, yet I still look towards others for help
Though it's common knowledge that my dreams won't come true,
I still hope someone will come and rescue me
But the people I ask for reassurance, turn away for me
Ignore and hurt me, as the world does
I starve for affection
I just want someone to care for me
Someone to love me and get me to smile and laugh
Yet everyone I want this from,
Turns and leaves me
I thought that life was supposed to be positive
Yet most of the time, I look through hazy gray glasses
I thought my outlook on life was supposed to be bright and rosy
My fantasy world is beautiful and perfect
While reality is dark, dreary, and down right shitty
It really doesn't matter how hard I try to get my life together
Because it all falls a part any way
I have one good day out of a week
And that's only if I'm lucky
I feel as if I'm in a never-ending maze
And I can't seem to find my way out
I need someone to reassure me that I will be okay
That this coldness will eventually become heat and melt the ice that covers my heart
What I need in my life right now is a light to show me what path to take
I need guidance
Just to have a normal life
One without depression lurking behind every corner and in every shadow
I need to get my life back on track

(C) Copyright 2006 by Kyleene Mitchell