My life..

This isn't really a poem...but its hard to even try to describe a life in words..then trying to get it to make sense as a poem??

I look back over the years of my life and begin to ask myself..
Who am i and why have i changed so much? am i even the same person i was back then? I feel my life is such a waste, a waste of time space and need!

I use to be so happy! What happened?
I use to enjoy life! where'd it all go?

Years after, a fear had left me, it was not totally gone but for a while, something was restricting it. The restrictions were not enough, the pain was coming back! To sit, to watch and to feel it will never escape me!

That one call saved one life! A life that will always remain a part of me forever.