Sitting in the hard metal chair,
I feel your presence next to me
I notice your arm around me shoulders
And I look down the row of seats next to us
Two places down, there is a pretty young woman
She is kind, outgoing, and continually drawing attention to herself
This young girl is my friend, Jessica
She and I begin to have a conversation,
Writing back and forth on a piece of paper
But suddenly she turns to you with the pencil
You answer whatever it is that she has written
And when Jessica recieves your answer,
She begins to laugh
Unexpectedly, you begin to ignore me
And because of this attractive girl,
You are no longer thinking of me
You arm slides from my shoulders
And you no longer acknowledge my company
I stare straight ahead,
Trying to ignore the emptiness and pain that is eating at my heart
Her innocent giggles flicker to my ears
And your full-throated laughter stabs into my thoughts
I try to concentrate on what is being said at the podium
Yet all I see is her fluttering eyelashes
And the becoming blush that creeps into your cheeks
As your girlfriend,
I shouldn't have to deal with the pain of seeing you flirt with another girl
But there it is, right in front of me
The whisper of words floating between you and Jessica
Reach my ears like fire
Tears well up in my eyes
And I must leave to control my pain and anger
I feel humiliated by your unkind actions and behavior
Does our love hold no meaning in you heart?
As I sit alone in my room hours later,
The tears finally overflow and spill down my face
A new welt has been branded on me
Yet I still miss looking into your eyes
We spend a wonderful evening together
And for a small portion of my day,
I have forgotten the pain that has continually fogged my mind
But the next day my anger reaches its peak
As I realize that a friend has back-stabbed me
Violence threatens to break loose from my control
And I think of how low Jessica has sunk
You apologize for your actions
Yet I still feel wronged
Jessica tries to talk to me
But I refuse to listen
I want to be furious for a while
This pain is raw and won't heal
How dare you hurt me?
Rip my heart into pieces
How can you be so cold?
Please don't flirt with another girl in front of me
That is crossing the comfort and okay line
You must understand my bitterness
I have reasons to be seething and silent
Leave me be
And allow these tears to fall without your comment
Your hurtful flirting is the cause of this quiet pain
Jessica is the cause of my fury
