Dear dearest...

U say i have saved u,
helped fight away ur fears,
i believe its mutual,
its just u haven't seen my tears,

i do not need saving,
my acts have pure intent,
u may not agree with me,
but this force u implement,

it is not helping me,
but worsening my fears,
i can't see my self as normal,
until ive achieved my dream,

we both think we are selfish,
for focussing on ourselves,
i know that we can makes this,
together we'll make it back from hell,

as these devils surround me,
they hide behind my eyes,
not to mention those watching,
those not masked by their lies,

i can hear them whisper,
watching my every move,
i used to think i could fight this,
but i've got nothing to prove,

ur own lies; although i love u,
are haunting away the truth,
shying away from the reality,
that i cannot now soothe,

evrything surrounds me,
everything drab and remote,
im not like everyone else,
what do i have to gloat,

they stand in front of the mirror,
and smile at what they see,
i wish that i could do that,
i wish that that was me,

u know how much i love u,
i try to show u everday,
it is me who i hate,
I believe it must be this way.

i don't have a problem,
its not like u think,
im really not unhappy,
im just not complete.

ELSO i love u soo much, u ARE the world for me- there are somethings u just cant fix, maybe being broken is part of me. there is no answer for me or you no imediate cure. the truth is i'll never be happy until its too late.