Life of a Cutter

I hate my life
so I took this knife
and now on my wrist
are a couple of slits
what I really missed
was my past
everyone thinks I'm this big ditz
but I'm not, it was an act
that I knew wouldnt last
I will never be someones wife
for I wont be here
for much longer
this is for you dear
everytime I use this knife
it gets stronger and stronger
I have a huge list
of reasons why I slit my wrist
this is a fact
my life is so out of wack
my arm will show you
it will show what I do
I am leaving you now
for you will see how
I will take this knife
one last time
this will be my very last rhyme
all of my pain
is now red rain
the last thing I say
today is to you
you're the reason I do what I do
you've seen my legs and arms
you saw what kind of harm
I can do to myself
this is the reason
its not unknown
you all saw me
but you really didnt see
so I will leave you with
the memory of me
the death that was caused by cutting
sound all the alarms
you now know
the life of a cutter