Change

Every time we talk about this
One of ends up
Crying or storming off..

I do not like the idea
I do not like the change
I do not want to do this..

I am sorry that I am negative
But I just can't help it
I am nervous and my feelings
Are all over the place..

I can't think about
Leaving my friends
Leaving my life
And starting over..

It is just too scary
Too real
And the terror that it creates
Makes me act this way..

I know this is best for me
And best for us
But my life is here
And I do not want to change
Anything about it..

I just do not know..
I am still in shock
I still do not quite believe
But I know I shall have to
And I would prefer
Sooner rather than later..

So I better start now,
And know that
Wherever I go, no matter how far
I will always remember
These friends and this life..