Confused, shattered and broken; I don't know what to do. I wonder if I'd say the words left unspoken; or to accept the fact of letting go.
Oh, well they say I am smart. Intelligence and wisdom are my passions. But when it's time to choose my heart... there are lots of stupidities to mention.
When I looked at myself in the mirror; I see someone else I don't know. An innocent girl with grace and honor... that goodness in her countenance show.
But when I lie in bed at night; I couldn't help but wonder. There's someone else inside I hide; somehow I'd spend some time to ponder.
I wanna cry out all the frustrations; all of them I kept hiding inside. I wanna show all my apprehensions... I really wish I just have tried.
They usually say I'm a good daughter; they really say I am. But I can't help myself to discover... there are lots of things I haven't done.
They say I'm an excellent writer; that words come out easily from my mind. If they only knew the battle I'm under... they'd somehow say I'm right.
I can't even express what I really feel. In words by use of pen. I desperately hope all of me isn't real. I don't know why, or how, or started when.
Look at me beyond the walls; hear me say what I wanna say. Unveil your eyes and see truth from false... I am not what I seem to be.
Why can't you see the real me? Or would someone else notice? That the personality I'm hiding beneath me; can't live without some peace.
Why don't you think I'm somebody else? Somebody else you can't see. Would someone say he loves me... when he knows me totally?
There's something in me I can't explain; I hope someone could read it in my eyes. I wish I could
take all of the pain... and tell all people what they saw in me are lies.
I don't wanna live with guilt forever. I always think I'm a prisoner. I don't wanna live with lies forever. I know I'm a great deal of a sinner.
Would someone accept me for who I am? Would someone dare to love me; would someone care; would someone come... would someone dare to set me free?
I can deceive you with my innocent face; don't think of me to be me. I can fool you with my loving words; sometimes; things are not what they seem to be.
