Resisting

Chaos bottled inside of me
waiting to be free
no way to make it stop
i must ignoreit
the pain inside me makes me sick
i can\'t focus on my life
it needs to just go away
but i only know of one way
and it\'s thr wrong way
but maybe if i fo it once
just to relieve this pain
it might be okay
i don\'t want to
but it\'s become such a habbit
it seems i haven\'t another choice
if onlu i wasn\'t triggered...
but i was
and now the cycle will repeat itself once again
i wish i never wouldve started
never tried it \"just once\"
maybe i\'d be happier
and i wouldn\'t feel so alone
people look at me
they label me \"psycho\"
but im not
i just want to be free
free from this burden
oves and for all
but it looks like that will never happen
i am doomed
to feel this desire forever
well FUK IT!!!
if its always gonna be like this
what\'s the point,
of trying to resist?