Finally let Go....

I can feel my heart beat
it trembles in my mind
i know that i am letting go
slowly passes time

To lay in bed at night
awake is my new sleep
empty and so broken
my tears so soft and sweet

Alone yet so fulfilled
depressed yet with a smile
walking with my head up
but living in denile

my fingers slowly trace
the world thats filled with lies
my mind suddenly will race
with pain that i cant hide

as i look into the future
i see i dont exist
this could have all been different
that was my last death wish...