The pain from him

While I called it love
He called it friends
While I called it friends
He called it boyfriend girlfriend

He was the one who said “I love u” first
He was the one that was my love
He was the one I went to the dance with

But I wasn’t the girl of his dreams
As I scream I cant be the perfect girl u want me to be

We went our separate ways
On the day that you moved
We got in a fight
So I blocked u

So were both older now
A year it has been
I deicide to unblock you
Just for today

An IM pops up and it was him
Saying sorry for what happened to him

“no everything’s my fault” I said
“im just a screw up im sorry for what I did”
“your not a screw up” he said
“not as much as I am”

“no u cant not any more then me”
“oh ya I lost my virginity”
And award silence fell between us

“I did” he said
“Iv made the biggest mistake of my life”

And after I thought about that
I realized how much I used to love him
But its gone I cant see

He’ll never be with me
We were both foolish
Last year as a couple
Both to shy un till that day u came home

A fight
So much pain, I wanted to take it all away
I was sitting outside
On the roof when my cell phone rings
And it was u

I was to scared to pick it up
To scared to hear, its lightning and down pouring
As the door bell starts to ring, I remember that day
It was July 15th
I was so confused, I ran around and didn’t know what to do
As the door bell kept ringing
I ran to the window
And pierced outside

A quick glance
And you were standing outside in the pouring rain
Texting my cell phone saying
“I wouldn’t do this for any other girl”

that’s when I realized..
I truly loved you
But a year has gone
Things have changed
Were both not the same, as we used to be

I hate to say
That things have changed
Cause today
I fell in love again
With the man that causes my heart to much pain..