Unaware of recovery

I can't stand to see this
her mind and thinking
so amazing
in every way

she has so much to for
even though her past is hell
if only i could help
to fill the empty hole in her heart

its so bottled up inside
and the bottle won't break
so i can't get in
to help her get out

i see the way she sees herself
as i watch her look in the mirror
I'm holding back my tears
as i see unhappiness

the pain and sadness
that i have for her
she would be shocked to find
just how large it is

readmission struck
and then I'm left alone
not knowing what to do
since what i did wasn't enough

the first pains i had
are all coming back
but now they are all worse
because i am failure for he wellbeing

as time went on she appears okay
but i am unaware
of her total truth
and her wellbeing

i am here to help her
yet her bottle just won't crack
so how will i help her
be set free

an average seven year recovery
will seem so much longer
and i can't know if she is
even nearing her right path

and from all this
I've turned to what is said as bad
these slits on my wrists
and burns on my arms

please let her be freed
for what she can live to is amazing
she is perfect as she is
let her know that to