My biggest enemy my worst fear
The one word that sends my heart racing,
hoping for another way out
With burdens like rocks tied to my back waiting for me to give up
Give in with everything at jeopardy
All of my possessions worldly and sentimental
All at my loss
The fear of losing everything is always keeping me from being alone
Old wounds open up and let in all that is bad to destroy all that I have gained
All of the effort, pain was worth nothing
And I, no one can ever replace that.
The happiness that I once had but never cherished, only to see it slip away
Gone in the blink of an eye, an instant and gone for an eternity
The never ending time of loneliness and denial
Denial of the fact of being by myself in this world of emptiness
Solitudes with no sounds nor colors
only blackened to feel the loneliness once again
in the silent world of nothingness that engulfs everything
