I Know I Don't Belong...Still I Wish

by Lost & Delirious   Jun 10, 2006


I'm afraid that you're capable of finding my hidden darkness,
That you're seeing through me and have discovered smiling lies.
Maybe you won't understand the reasons for my sadness,
And you'll judge me without even approaching my life.

I want to feel your naive brown eyes caressing mine,
Not being scared of the dark ocean always stirring within.
Please close those precious eyes, inhale what's inside,
Feel the blue waves all desiring your unreachable kiss.

I have finally stopped trying to force myself into change,
Learned experience will guide me in my way to happiness.
Maybe I'll never reach it, maybe it sounds strange,
But lately I've found a home in my everyday loneliness.

When I'm alone I feel safe from the outside danger,
In front of the mirror, I'm the only one seeing my tears.
When I'm surrounded by people I turn into a stranger,
A fake smile covers my wet spirit as I swallow all my fears.

I'm sorry but I just own my one and only broken soul,
And as much as I want to be your perfect girl in this world.
I don't feel beautifully young, inside I'm trembling and cold,
Inner emotions and thoughts always find a way to show.

I know that maybe your heart will never be my home,
In your happiness and hopeful eyes, I know I don't belong.
Every moment of my life has left me all alone,
Still I wish that just with you it won't be the same sad song.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Tainted Beauty

    I really liked this poem, there was so much detail.

    I absolutly loved the last part

    "I know that maybe your heart will never be my home,
    In your happiness and hopeful eyes, I know I don't belong.
    Every moment of my life has left me all alone,
    Still I wish that just with you it won't be the same sad song"

    You are amasingly talented, keep up the great work.

    --Steph

  • 18 years ago

    by Samantha

    I love how you use such vivid images. It makes me feel like I can almost reach out and touch you, and touch your pain.

    Awesome poem. Don't say you don't have talent, because you have plenty.

  • 18 years ago

    by Bridgette

    Wow.. that was really good. There's so much of this that I can relate to. You did a great job on this. The second stanza was my favorite. It was very descriptive and emotional. 5/5

  • 18 years ago

    by Sean Allen

    "That you see through me and discover my smiling lies."
    'discover' is a verb that is inherently in the future, so in order to work with the tense situation in the sentence (parallel construction issue), you are going to want it to be more like 'have discovered', because if they are currently 'see through'-ing, then the discovery has already occurred.
    ~~~
    "And you'll judge me without even approaching to my life."
    I feel like using 'to' after 'approaching' is an improper use of the verb 'approach'. Using 'to' is more commonly reserved for the noun form of 'approach'. I'd omit the word 'to' from the sentence.
    ~~~
    I've already commented on this poem once before, but I had different things to suggest this time, and you wanted some questions answered.

    First of all, the second stanza doesn't follow the rhyme scheme.

    What did I understand?
    All of it, it was not difficult to comprehend.

    What did it make me feel?
    Sort of sad and lonely, though detached from the situation as well. I didn't feel like I was involved (I'm not), but some poems drag the reader into the midst of things, this kept me separate.

    What part did you like and why?
    I liked the length of the lines and, ironically, the second stanza. I liked the second stanza because it held important and personal details, and it was the one stanza I connected to the most. The length of the lines I enjoyed because it separated the rhymes and made the story more enjoyable.

  • 18 years ago

    by Sweet Angel of Darkness

    I like it a lot, it's really original

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