YOU

I always thought that if I gave it time,things would change.

You would change.

But nothing did,
it only became worse.

You were still the same old you.

The you that I did not ever want to see again.

The you that always said and did such hurtful things.

But once I realized that things had not even come so close to changing,it was too late for me to turn and run.

All I ever wanted was for you to be the same person that I had fallen deeply in love with.

I was always happy to see you waiting for me by my locker,
then it soon turned to you waiting for me in my driveway.

I didn't know what to say when you first told me that you loved me,
and that first kiss was like nothing I had ever felt before.

When you held me in your arms,
I never once felt scared or cold,
because I knew that I was safe.

I never knew or thought that we would ever last as long as we did.

3 years seemed like such a short time.

Everything was perfect,
or so I thought.

I never knew that you would be capable of such a thing...

I would feel sorry for the girl who had to go through something like that and wish deep down that I could somehow help her.

At first I thought it was my fault and I had made you angry and that was what brought you to do what you did.

But after a while I soon found out that you were losing your temper for every little thing...

I was in pain,
emotionally and physically.

I always forgave you and always tried my best to make you happy.

I lost many friends because I chose you over them,
even though it was hell to be with you.

But I did not leave you because I loved you,
you were everything to me,
my first love,
kiss,
my first everything.

I put up with everything,
the hurtful words,
the painful blows,
and all the bruises that I had to keep a secret from my family and friends.

I just wish I had known sooner that it wasn't I,
but you who needed help.