This life I live lost you all

*my life is too dangerous, too painful to live*
*so many sins God refuses to forgive*
*having to say goodbye*
*to those I have made cry*
*while I live my broken life*
*I've destroyed lives*
*of those who matter most*
*and this pain I harbor*
*haunts me like a ghost*
*while I remember the past*
*too bad my safe harbor*
*never seems to last*
*my Friends I've had to let go*
*follow me around like my shadow*
*will this life I lead*
*ever help me succeed*
*in holding those I hold so dear*
*without this endless fear*
*I have for them living....
this life I live*