A Realization

I came to a realization,
That I hated someone for the first time.
I never hated anything, not even the gravitation,
That brings things together, even enemies of all kind.

She was this girl,
That bothered me to no end.
She was that type of person,
That is a test God send.

She seemed to always be sad,
Keeping to herself all the time.
She thought she treated everyone bad,
Trying to keep staying in line.

Some people thought she was a hopeless case,
She was the opposite of ever girl, you see?
Always wasting her time in books of good taste,
Sometimes you wouldn't believe.

She was the loner of the class,
Staying in her corner.
Always pass by too fast,
So no one could inform her.

I hated that she was alone,
I hated her for being here.
Sometimes she's as stiff as stone,
I actually hated her for all these tears.

Every time I look in the mirror,
I see her face there.
I never got to see much clearer,
That's shows you life is not fair.

I hated how she hated everything,
She is always depressed.
I hated how she completely gives in,
To make her heart compressed.

I hated the way she looked,
She always had that fake smile.
And of the things she took,
She never kept them for a while.

I hated the fact she stayed in this world,
She believed in God too much.
She didn't want to end her life,
Because she was living for a purpose of such.

I hated her for who is she,
Not because I didn't like what she did.
I hated her for the life she gave me,
Because she never thought about herself.

That girl hated me in life and school,
Because of the life she has, you see?
She always seemed like the fool,
Because that girl is me.