Daddy i need you

I hate who i am so bad
i don't wanna be here no more
i cant figure out my life
been walking dead since i was four

i always do these stupid things
then cry these tears of pain
hate the fact I'm alive
wish that i no longer remain

i drink till i am numb
i cut till i bleed red
all to feel alive
because I'm really dead

my self respect is zero
and i don't even care
just wish i was alive in side
instead of empty and bare

i need some reassuring
some good advice from you
i need to know you love me
cause I'm searching for what to do

i need you dad
why did you have to leave me
i love you so much
but i don't think you can see

we haven't spoken in months
you haven't come to see me
because you don't care
I'm no your other daughter of three

just please help me daddy
i don't like who i am anymore
i want things to be normal again
like it was when i was four

before you left daddy
and this family became broken
tears stain our portrait
of so many words left unspoken

i need you so much
i just need you to love me
i cant handle this anymore
I'm broken cant you see

these things i do there stupid
i regret most of my life
its the worst feeling ever
but not as bad as the knife

please dad just stop the pain
dry up my endless tears
heal me of my wounds
and release me of my fears