I.......

I love my boyfriend very much,
I hate my family to the core,
and the life I am living,
I will tell you that for sure,

I hate the way I feel so sad,
and not even knowing why,
I just want to disappear,
want to hide away and cry,

With these negative thoughts,
swimming round my brain,
I feel like everyone is running,
because I am such a pain,

I feel more lonely than ever,
but there are people everywhere,
I scream out for attention,
but nobody ever seems to care,

When I lay down to sleep at night,
I pray for my life and my fears,
but when I wake up from my dreams,
my pillow is always soggy with tears,

My only comfort is my teddy bear,
hugging and holding it so tight,
I feel just like a frightened child,
I keep telling myself i'll be alright,

I needed advice the other day,
but did not know where to go,
so I went along with my instincts,
my mistake is starting to show,

I knew I had done the wrong thing,
but now it might be too late,
I hope that this time I am lucky,
or if not I chose my fate.........

Copyright 2006 - Amanda Linzi