One last time

For: John
If could just hold you in my arms one last time
Feel the gentle grasp of your lips against mine
Id give it all, Id give the world
Just to hear you say Im your baby girl

Dont let me know if you dont care
Because I love you too much it isnt fair
Just pretend that you love me too
It already hurts enough not being with you

See I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you my heart, my soul, and my trust
Id go back to change the past
Give you my whole heart and take off my mask

Take down my wall of being scared and let you in
Because youre where I want my life to start and end
Im sorry for breaking your heart
I know it just tore you apart

It feels like you have no reason to live
And you think about what you didnt give
Your heart falls to your stomach and your tears are never ending
You just wish you could start over and go back to the beginning

You just want to scream and yell and fall to the ground
Because you feel helpless with out that person around
Now I know how much pain I put you through
But I cant go through the pain of losing you

How am I going to breathe and be okay with your goodbye?
How am I going survive?
I dont know what Im going to do
Im lost with out you

You did everything good in my eyes
Im sorry that I hardly tried
I just hope that youre happy with whatever you do
I hope all of your dreams come true