I'm confused and alone
I don't know who I am
I don't know why I'm alive
I just want to die
So I wish death for myself
A death so painful
With Blood
Lots of dark crimson red blood
Screaming
Loud shrill screams
That echo loudly
Screams that people never forget
Hurt
Hurt so deep that is kills me
Kills me till I can't breath
Can't speak
Can't hear
And most of all
Can't feel
I want to loose all feeling
Go numb and weak
Sadness
Tears flowing down faces
Mourning the death of a loved one
That loved one is me
I want to be forgotten
Never remembered
No one to bring me up
I just want to disappear
Vanish
Never to return
Never to live
Never to have been born
I feel pain
Hurt
Sadness
Depression
Everyday that I live
Live in this cold dark world
Nothing is the same
I felt loved and wanted
And now I feel
I feel like nothing
Like people would never
Never notice if I was gone
I live a life of fake
Fake everything
My life is like a black hole
Nothing but darkness
A darkness with no color
Only black
So I wither up and die
For there will be
No more suffering
No more pain
No more living
I'll be happy
Happy to not have to deal
Deal with the things I face ahead of me
The things that make me want to be dead
But I have to
So that's why I'm alive
I wish I was dead
But I'm here
And I'm here to stay
